028;

I have nothing. I have nothing absolutely nothing. I have a handful of friends I trust, a boyfriend who lives thousands of miles away, no motivation, no urge to succeed. I'm so far behind in school I hardly see the point in trying anymore. I don't see the point in anything anymore. I wouldn't be hurting anyone if I just disappeared. I bet no one would even notice.

Part of me wants to get a job, save up some money and then run away to Paris or London when I turn 18...maybe I'll do it.

027;

I have a horrible tendency to take things the wrong way. I constantly think that people are out to get me so I take things badly instead of the way I'm supposed to. For example, if someone says "You look nice today." I immediately think, "What, I looked bad yesterday?" instead of viewing it as a compliment.

I'm far too paranoid for my own good, it'll kill me one day.

026;

I'm seeing things.

Last week I had a nightmare and now each time I pass a window, I see shadowy figures. I hear whispers when it's quiet and I feel like someone is watching me. I can't sleep without a light on or I can hear breathing and feel movement at the end of my bed.

I know it's all in my head, I just can't get it out. Does this mean I'm at my breaking point? I don't know, I just wish it would stop. It's driving me insane.